STRESSED!!

Ok...so I just spent 30 minutes writing a VERY long post and it did not post and it is gone!! I am going to try again....

I know it has been a long time since I have written and I would say that I have been too busy, but if you know me at all you would know that is a lie. Oh, there are plenty of things that I need to be doing that could be keeping my busy, but instead of actually doing them I think about it and stress out. I need someone here with me that will keep me motiviated and help me get these things done. As you can see from the top of the page Justin and I have decided to name our little boy Cooper Kyle McCuistion. Justin wanted to keep the name a secret, and we did for quite awhile, but then he decided he wanted to tell.

We had our church shower last weekend and received ALOT of wonderful things. I do not have a clue where we are going to put everything. That would be one of the many reasons the title of this post is STRESSED! I have been blessed to have a very normal pregnancy so far. I have not had any major problems...knock on wood. I have 5 weeks to go until Cooper is supposed to make his big debut. I am guessing that I am going through the nesting phase...Does that even start this early?? I really don't know. Anyway, I am pretty sure this is it. If it isn't than I feel extremely sorry for my husband!!! I have been stressing out about getting the house ready for Coop. Yesterday Justin helped me clean out the extra bedroom closet so that we would have a place to keep the strollers...(yes that is plural we have two) and the other big stuff that we do not need everyday. When we finished he thought that would make me happy and a little less stressed...well it did for a moment! I then started telling him everything else that needed done...clean out the office closet, the hall closet, the cabinets in the laundry room, get the nursery finished, etc. Needless to say we got in a little argument and of course I started crying. That is something that I have down pat these days. It doesn't take much of anything to make me start crying. Justin can look at me wrong, raise his voice, call me a name (not even a bad one, just joking around) and the water works start. When I start thinking about everything that needs to be done I start to cry as well. I try to tell myself that everything will be ok, if we do not get everything done before he gets here, but then I think we won't have time after he gets here!!!! I'm telling you hormones can drive you crazy! In all actuality we have 5 weeks until he is supposed to be here, but I want to get it all done before school starts in 2 weeks, because I also have all of THAT stuff to do. I can't get in my room to start working, I can't do lesson plans because stuff I need is in my classroom, I don't have any clue who is going to sub for me, and I really don't even know how long I will be able to work.

Ok, so now that I have written all of this stuff out I am feeling stressed out AGAIN and I just want to go lay in bed and cry! Instead, I am going to get dressed, go eat lunch with my mom, and go to wal-mart! Please send ALOT of prayers up for me...and Justin. I'm not sure who is going to need them the most.

Let me tell you a little about Cooper. He is definitely getting bigger because I can feel him all over my belly. Right now he is moving and poking me in my side. His movements have gotten alot stronger now. It doesn't really hurt when he moves, but I don't enjoy it as much as I use to. Now when he moves, I usually move myself. I go to the doctor tomorrow. I am going to ask her how big she thinks he is and if he is in the head down position. I also am going to ask her what she thinks about me going back to work and how long I can go for. I'll let you know!